Breaking Up Is Hard To Do

they say you are al­ways an al­co­holic al­ways
ad­dicted to nicotine that af­ter you cease smok­ing de­sist drink­ing 
each day starts from scratch and when you see some­one
else drink­ing or smok­ing or
do­ing those things they do when they need
a drink or smoke
you get that itch in your gut or lips and can’t scratch it it
ir­ri­tates and you twitch and fid­get and smell
it and taste it and re­mem­ber how good it was be­fore it
got bad and then you get kind of dis­tracted
be­cause you know if you keep think­ing
about get­ting some of that good bad­ness back by scratch­ing that
match to light a smoke or knock­ing back
a shot of al­co­hol you’ll do it — re­ally do it HOLY
SHIT — and then where are you stuck 
back ad­dicted again with a burn­ing throat
and dry eyes and now that you’ve got a new
ticket on that train quit­ting was never
more dif­fi­cult which is why, you see, af­ter what we had we
just can’t be friends. 

I’ve run into so many ran­dom con­ver­sa­tions about ad­dic­tion lately, from the woman at the beach from AA who was hav­ing a cell phone dis­cus­sion with some­one in need of sup­port, to Ask MetaFilter threads about co­caine ad­dic­tion, dis­cus­sions on smoke breaks [their smoke break, not mine!] with cowork­ers, to weblog­ger chitchats about quit­ting cigs… that is where this came from. Of course, I still tried to put my own twist on the end. How does it do ya? Any sug­ges­tions?

4 thoughts on “Breaking Up Is Hard To Do

  1. no, no sug­ges­tions at all.

    imho,it’s fuck­ing awe­some adam. 

    i met a girl at mich­fest and we talked for over an hour about her ad­dic­tion to al­co­hol and drugs, and how it ac­tu­ally dom­i­nated a re­la­tion­ship she was in. what a chal­lenge it is and you re­ally de­tailed it nicely.

    your “metaphor” (if i may call it such) is quite fuck­ing strong, be­cause un­healthy re­la­tion­ships can be just as ad­dict­ing as crack or booze. how frail the hu­man spirit is when vul­ner­a­ble to ad­dic­tion.

    i think you’ve writ­ten some­thing that is both in­sight­ful and cre­ative.

    cheers, adam, us­ing a rasp­berry beer that i just had last night, which hap­pened to be the best fuck­ing beer i have ever had thus far in my short beer-drink­ing life! 🙂

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