they say you are always an alcoholic always addicted to nicotine that after you cease smoking desist drinking each day starts from scratch and when you see someone else drinking or smoking or doing those things they do when they need a drink or smoke you get that itch in your gut or lips and can’t scratch it it irritates and you twitch and fidget and smell it and taste it and remember how good it was before it got bad and then you get kind of distracted because you know if you keep thinking about getting some of that good badness back by scratching that match to light a smoke or knocking back a shot of alcohol you’ll do it — really do it HOLY SHIT — and then where are you stuck back addicted again with a burning throat and dry eyes and now that you’ve got a new ticket on that train quitting was never more difficult which is why, you see, after what we had we just can’t be friends.
I’ve run into so many random conversations about addiction lately, from the woman at the beach from AA who was having a cell phone discussion with someone in need of support, to Ask MetaFilter threads about cocaine addiction, discussions on smoke breaks [their smoke break, not mine!] with coworkers, to weblogger chitchats about quitting cigs… that is where this came from. Of course, I still tried to put my own twist on the end. How does it do ya? Any suggestions?