Freak On

today has been inter­est­ing. does the fact that i desire a beau­ti­ful woman make me shal­low? if so, then i guess i am shal­low. how­ev­er, i believe that since our first instinct is phys­i­cal, it should be accept­ed, pro­vid­ed that the attrac­tion is not only lim­it­ed to that. seri­ous­ly, if you knew a per­son of the oppo­site sex who had one eye, severe burns, a club foot, a hare­lip, greasy hair, and the most won­der­ful per­son­al­i­ty in the entire uni­verse, would you be attract­ed. sure you might hang out with them but would you want to get your freak on with them? if so you are a bet­ter per­son than i am.

how do i rec­on­cile myself to the fact that some­one can appear won­der­ful and degrad­ed at the same time. by look­ing at myself. i know i have pos­i­tive qual­i­ties, and i know my neg­a­tives bet­ter than any­one. why should i judge when i am the same. i need under­stand­ing and dia­logue to attain enlight­en­ment. i must not be bound by stag­nant thought, par­tic­i­pant-obser­va­tion will enable me to under­stand points of view that i have under­stood through my cul­tur­al edu­ca­tion to be bad. i must make myself a bet­ter per­son. i owe it to you.