Freak On

to­day has been in­ter­est­ing. does the fact that i de­sire a beau­ti­ful woman make me shal­low? if so, then i guess i am shal­low. how­ev­er, i be­lieve that since our first in­stinct is phys­i­cal, it should be ac­cept­ed, pro­vid­ed that the at­trac­tion is not on­ly lim­it­ed to that. se­ri­ous­ly, if you knew a per­son of the op­po­site sex who had one eye, se­vere burns, a club foot, a hare­lip, greasy hair, and the most won­der­ful per­son­al­i­ty in the en­tire uni­verse, would you be at­tract­ed. sure you might hang out with them but would you want to get your freak on with them? if so you are a bet­ter per­son than i am.

how do i rec­on­cile my­self to the fact that some­one can ap­pear won­der­ful and de­grad­ed at the same time. by look­ing at my­self. i know i have pos­i­tive qual­i­ties, and i know my neg­a­tives bet­ter than any­one. why should i judge when i am the same. i need un­der­stand­ing and di­a­logue to at­tain en­light­en­ment. i must not be bound by stag­nant thought, par­tic­i­pant-ob­ser­va­tion will en­able me to un­der­stand points of view that i have un­der­stood through my cul­tur­al ed­u­ca­tion to be bad. i must make my­self a bet­ter per­son. i owe it to you.