Archive for July, 2002


i don’t associate myself with my body or my name. my entity is content to define itself merely as psyche. perhaps that is why i only take care of my appearence when society demands i do so. why i shave once a week, instead of not at all. why i have multiple changes of clothing […]

Renshai Chronicles

after a summer filled with reading works considered to be fine pieces of literature, my return to the books i have enjoyed the most, fantasy novels, is bittersweet. i relish the stories for their entertainment value, but now they are starting to seem a little…juvenile. perhaps this is just due to the books i am […]

Stubborn Son of a Bitch

its in my blood to be a stubborn son of a bitch. i hate it when people tell me that i have to do something. my immediate response is the challenge their order with a question. Why do i have to do it? Huh? Answer me! however, using a different word will often slip by […]

Farmer’s Weather Complex™

i’ve almost got the CSS version of my page finished. i was almost giving myself and aneurysm trying to figure it out for the past few days but it all clicked yesterday especially after a little help from this place. now all i need to do is get moveabletype installed correctly on my webspace and […]


CSS is cool! i love it but i hate it. just got back from the mall. wtf is up with the cheapo picture taking things?? they suck now. they aren’t cheap and they only spit out one photo. remember how they used to spit out a strip of 4 different shots so you could have […]


well she had fun, but not until her ‘brother’ and my good friend brian showed up from Cleveland. she didn’t yarf, but she did go to the restroom about 70 billion times. we ate at the Mishawaka Brewing Company, which was excellent as always. Great Irish Meat Pies. then we left to go to the […]

Meagan’s 21st

today is my friend Meagan’s 21st birthday. she is not a drinker at all. in fact, i think she can count the times she has had a drink on one hand. but not after tonight. i am skipping my work shift tonight to take her out with some friends and get her wasted as hell. […]

Bad Hygiene

i’ve stopped even making the attempt to get up early enough to do basic hygiene before stumbling into work. at the beginnning of the summer, i strove to start my schedule at 9 in the morning but since clusters open at 8 i was not permitted to schedule myself at 9 without also signing up […]


yeah, so learning CSS is harder than i thought. especially since the educational version of Dreamweaver that we have does not have any of the CSS attributes installed on it. Thankfully one of my fellow websavvy students has a CSS book that he is going let me borrow. but all of this junk with me […]

80s Movies – Blech

The only way to watch coming-of-age fliks from the ’80s is while drinking. at least if you are me. the best word to describe my feelings regarding said films is abhor. We watched Can’t Buy Me Love and Footloose last night. It was, perhaps, more fun to rip on the relatively innocent antics and eccentric […]

End of the Day

i like being the last person in a building at the end of the day. i get a feeling of mysterious importance, as if i were responsible for maintaining and controlling some sort of secret powerful project. or, as my feet echo through the hallways, i become an interloper, discovering and wondering at the stories […]

Weezer, buh-dy

Weezer, budd-y! Last night was a good concert night and could only have been improved if the Strokes hadn’t had to cancel. Of course, there was the inevitable roadtrip associated with attending a concert in the midwest but O My how fun it was. I got some free concert tix to a 12 local band […]

Vaguely Disreputable

most of the programs on my computer have been obtained through vaguely disreputable means. its not that i stole anything, no product or service was literally taken from anyone. yet when i am tooling around the intranet here at ND and i happen to find a folder that has no password protection on it and […]

Made for TV Movie

I had a nice weekend. Friday, I made a new friend and stayed up all night watching movies with her. We watched Monty Python and the Holy Grail, Trainspotting, and If These Walls Could Talk. This last movie she had rented because it had Cher in it. It was an awful movie; it had an […]


the running theme for this site has seemed to develop itself. at an average of about once a month i redesign. it must be due to boredom. because that is the only reason i can think of to do it. this time i have mostly just changed the look, but i have changed around the […]

Trigger for Happiness

wish I could write like this: Enough searching to know that we’ve lost ourselves in our slot machines, shotguns, and stripmalls baby your technology so slick and functional and me without my nuclear arsenal And if I could kill without guilt or sin there’d soon be a few less record executives and if I could […]

Atlas Shrugged: Day 2

Day 2: On page 182 of Atlas Shrugged, I figured out who John Galt was. Major Objection: 18% of the way through the book. The story only holds my interest because of the characters’ internal dialogues. Character development does not seem to be Ayn Rand’s strong point and her use of narrative device only seems […]

Car Stolen, Almost

I thought my car had been stolen yesterday. Turns out the University had decided it and 3 other cars needed towing to another parking lot farther away. Why? So a temporary chain link fence could be put up. The reason for the fence is not obvious, it merely partitions part of the lot from the […]

Brave New World

It was simply and well written and I was impressed with Huxley’s knowledge and insights into social conditioning, yet as the author himself said in his foreward, it has many flaws. I am now convinced that every utopia is at the same time an antiutopia. Granted, Huxley presents a world free of virtue or vice, […]

US History and Extra Credit

Yesterday, I read Naked Lunch by William S. Burroughs. It has been on my list of books to read since Dr. Ledman’s US History class junior year of high school when Phil correctly answered one of his father’s ridiculous extra credit questions. They never had anything to do with US history per se and were […]


i did it! i, the incompetent foot-in-mouth antisuavo geekoid, asked a cute girl to go for some coffee and a chat! this is uncharted territory for me because i have been way too shy up until this point. she couldn’t do it because she has to look after her sister but she left me an […]

Bad Karma and America Bashing

it would have been bad karma to bash the american media about patriotism yesterday so i held off until today. on my shift wednesday night i was glancing through a Time and Newsweek and marveled at the amount of propaganda that was present in the publications. This is eerily like the development of the fascist […]

Head in the Shower

please fill in the blank at the end of this. There was a head in the shower this morning, its hair clogged the drain and when I picked it up the top came off. I turned it over and on the inside stamped in bright green letters were the words:


bleah. i’m tired and my eyes are crusty/crunchy since i chose sleep over shower this morning. but on to today’s rant and my first shot at metablogging. what i get tired of seeing as i search through the morass of the wideworldofweblogging are the sites in which the entries become nothing more than linguistic acrobatics. […]

Pretty Faces

today i am surrounded by beauty. the cluster is filled with pretty faces staring intently at the sundry tasks before them. a wrinkle of concentration here, the trout look there, bits of half heard mumbled spanish. innumerable sighs. here come three more pretty faces. i hope we have enough workstations to trap them in this […]

Summer Rant

my writing has started to change in many subtle ways. it is becoming less rigid in structure and less angst filled in content. perhaps i am finally getting a sense of perspective and a useful outlet for whatever wisdom i have gained during my time on this mortal coil. only problem is, i still don’t […]