Archive for September, 2002

Society and Culture Through Stupidity

my Society and Culture Through Film class is torture. i’m pretty sure i’ve already mentioned this, but the things people say about movies in that class wound me. For instance: Girl: I just wanted to say that I think it is interesting how they uh, like, never show the Indians being killed, they just, like […]

Lonely Guy

i’m a lonely guy, no doubt about it. it is my choice and my consequence. but whenever i decide to try and do something about it, the stupid mating game that must be played makes me saturnine. i am a man who does not like to bandy about emotions and i am not a man […]

Chariot Race

Today was the 5th annual Keough Hall Chariot Race. Last year, my section, 4B won the race. This year we were eliminated in the 1st round. These chariots are constructed out of plywood and 2x4s by the various dorms on campus. Keough, as host, has a chariot from each section. Our chariot was constructed by […]

Blessed Be

May a blesséd star shine upon Alissa and Sarah and Salim. I give them thanks a thousand times. As I struggled to haul my several hundred pounds of film equipment across campus, I passed at least a dozen guys who I know. None of them asked to help. However when Alissa and Sarah saw me […]

What is the Difference?

what is the difference between innocence and confidence, pleasure and happiness? what ambitions derive their source in our darker selves and what does the light side contain of power? why do inanities distract us from meaning and structured understanding of motivation, desire, and actualization? why do we live out our time in rote mechanisms that […]

Sprinkler Madness

motherfucking, goddamn sprinklers. i was all set up for my test shoot, the lighting was done, the talent was arriving momentarily and then guess what happens…the motherfucking, goddamn sprinklers turn on! ergo, i rushed about moving expensive camera equipment and lights around while jets of water squirt about me. shit like that always happens on […]

Fencing Conditioning

fencing conditioning is a rather interesting activity. sure we do lots of footwork, etc. but Zoltan our Euro assistant coach has his own unique methods which i believe are called the Idiotic Hungarian Jumping Drills. They are not idiotic because they are uneffective, on the contrary, they are good aerobically and muscularly. they are idiotic […]

Some Girl

today was even longer than usual. i got up early to stand in line for the extra stanford tix and waited for an hour and a half to sign a piece of paper and dish out the 43 bucks necessary for the tix only to be told to come back between 3-4 that afternoon to […]

Location Scout

Emily and I did the location scout for our film today. we hit up 3 coffee shops, a deli and a bakery. We like Molly McGuire’s the best so far. we need to ask our prof what the best way to shoot through a window would be. reflection and enough light inside the room will […]

ND beats Michigan State

we’re 4-0! this is the best start for ND in a looonng time. I’m very glad we finally beat Michigan State, i’ve been waiting for a victory over them for 4 years. next week we have a bye and then the following week on October 5 we face Stanford at home. i’m going to buy […]


This Friday’s song comes from a band that kicks no end of ass: Jimmie’s Chicken Shack. They are funny, creative, sometime political and always good to listen to. They hail from the southeast coast of the US. Heavily influenced by reggae and the dead it is inevitable that they smoke up alot, but hell people […]

Celebrate Differences

this morning as i wandered in the general direction of my next class, i began to wonder why i never see people celebrate the differences they have with others. i think it is because we have a faulty idea of what equality should be. we equate equality with conformity in a vaguely Harrison Bergeron kinda […]

Fencing Stuff

well i get about one meal a day right now. i’m definitely working on fixing that but it is rather difficult when you go for 8-10 hours at a stretch. i need the food because of practice and my insanely overactive metabolism. speaking of which, practice is going well despite my arthritic knee. i ice […]

Record Day

Holy Balls! Yesterday was a record day for hits on my site. all of that is owed directly to this Pretty Okay Guy at defectiveyeti. thanks to him for the shoutout. here is another one of my stupid fill in the blanks. Russell was on his back fallen leaves watching the breezes accompanying the new […]

Bloody Long Day

what a bloody long day! got up at 8 and went straight until 10. got my first food of the day at approximately 10:12. film idea is approved and is now being fleshed out into a screenplay. i’ll probably start storyboarding the bastard next week. film noir was boring. work was even more so as […]

Hanged Over

as i write this i am experiencing my first ever hangover. its not too bad, but i had no idea wine would affect me in this way. now i do and can avoid repeating the performance. the fencing party last night was a good time and my croatian teammate Ozren’s 25th(?) birthday. who knows, happy […]

ND beats Michigan 25-23

i love to win. Notre Dame beat our archrival Michigan 25-23. we were ranked 21 and they were ranked 6. can somebody say upset? fuckyeah! so after we won, we rushed the field and i got a chunk of the north endzone as a souvenir. i cannot speak and am rather dehydrated, which must be […]

Friday Jabber

Happy Friday the 13th! Waking Life was very interesting animation indeed. at times the dialogue (indeed for most of the middle part of the film) was heavy-handed timeless philosophizing, stuff that is permanently asked and never answered. it was damn trippy to watch though. today i have meeting galore. and now: The Friday mp3. today […]

Malicious Mechanisms

tonight i’m going to watch Waking Life (Linklater, 2001). its supposedly a very interesting type of animation converted from live action. i’m skipping out on my Film Noir screening of Double Indemnity (Wilder, 1944) to go see it. its just another one of those malicious mechanisms that prevent film majors from going to NDcinema by […]


I found out yesterday that the University switched to using Olestra during the summer. This explains why I haven’t had a nice healthy dump since I’ve been here. I suppose you don’t care to know this, but I don’t care. As you may or may not know one of the side effects of Olestra is […]

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Weekend of Visitors

This was the Weekend of Visitors for me. Steve from Syracuse, Brian and Kyle from West Lafayette, Jesus, Liam, AJ, Ann, Laura; all seniors when i was a freshman, and my aunt and uncle from Fort Wayne. When it rains it pours and Notre Dame home football games always call for a weather alert. our […]

Organic Mechanic

today’s choice was a no brainer. the band coincidentally has the same name as my site, Organic Mechanic. you can sample 4 of their mp3s on their site. but if you just want to grab something now I recommend Life is Everywhere. jazzy, poppy and catchy describe it pretty well. its obvious these guys know […]

Purdue Game

Alright! so begins the 1st football weekend of the year! My alumni buddy steve came into town yesterday and we went to Senior Bar for a bit to shoot the shit. Brian and Kyle, my bros from Purdue are showing up for the big game against their college of choice this weekend. it will be […]

Film Pitch Crash Burn

well all three of my film pitches got shot down today. i wasn’t too surprised. i have trouble coming up with ideas for narrative films. thats not what i am concerned with. i’m going to make non-fiction films dammit, i could care less about the intricacies of the Hollywood screenplay. The basic concepts of screenplay […]


the caustic wasps in their ignoble quest for intangible and immaterial whisperings. the unruly fury of a searcher with nothing to look for. simbelmyne and creatine and the smell of a rotten apple. led zeppelins raining down onto a raptured accomplice in the cosmic meandering. my spoon is too big. please forgive me i’m oh […]

Today, of Death

today i talk about death. logically people should have no fear of death. illogically we try various and sundry forms to prolong our lives and use terminology such as escape, cheat, and avoid in reference to death. News flash. no one can escape, cheat or avoid death. period. life and death are dichotomous and cannot […]

First Game under Ty

What a football game! Notre Dame didn’t play the best football in the world but it was 5 times as solid an infinitely more unpredictable than our game under the Davie Regime. I don’t know how many times i heard the phrase “West Coast Offense’ used, but it became rather grating. But in the end […]