i need to learn to breathe again. i went run­ning today. i expect­ed jel­ly­filled legs and a gimp knee since i’ve been out of comis­sion for so long. my legs feel fine as does my knee, prob­a­bly because i can’t breathe any­more. i did­n’t even get to set a good pace before my lungs start­ed stac­ca­to ren­di­tions of d’y­er mak’er. only 2 and a half miles before i whim­pered back home. i need to get my ass in gear and get back into shape. i’m pissed. so it begins. twice a week lift­ing and seri­ous cals and 3 days of run­ning. i want to reach the point where it hurts so i know i’m get­ting in shape. the addic­tive agony that doing the senior work­out of my cross­coun­try high­school days brings on. some of you know what i mean. i want to run until i throw up. what is wrong with that?