Tuesday, 30 July 2002

i don’t as­soc­iate my­self with my body or my name. my en­tity is con­tent to de­fine it­self merely as psy­che. per­haps that is why i only take care of my ap­pearence when so­ci­ety de­mands i do so. why i shave once a week, in­stead of not at all. why i have mul­ti­ple changes of cloth­ing in­stead of just a few. an­swer­ing to my name is just pavlo­vian re­sponse, and body lan­guage and small talk cour­te­sies merely mus­cle mem­ory guided by my ego into what i hope is a non­threat­en­ing ap­pearence. it gives me time to think.

i am in­ter­nal. too much so most likely. but my mind is the only thing that can hold my at­ten­tion for more than one mom…look at the purty lights!