Tuesday, 30 July 2002

Disassociation

i don’t associate myself with my body or my name. my entity is content to define itself merely as psyche. perhaps that is why i only take care of my appearence when society demands i do so. why i shave once a week, instead of not at all. why i have multiple changes of clothing instead of just a few. answering to my name is just pavlovian response, and body language and small talk courtesies merely muscle memory guided by my ego into what i hope is a nonthreatening appearence. it gives me time to think.

i am internal. too much so most likely. but my mind is the only thing that can hold my attention for more than one mom…look at the purty lights!