A Very Bad Thing

Well the weekend is over and it is time for me to get back to work. I spent way too much money on Magic cards, but I did manage to get my fix. I had trouble sleeping last night. I only slept for 6 and a half hours instead of longer as is my wont. I’m still kinda tired but I know I won’t be able to go back to sleep. Jamie’s friend Laura came to visit her this weekend, and I was introduced. She goes to the University of Arizona and is very pretty. Actually, they both are; and nice to boot. I need to find a girl like Jamie or Laura. They would probably tell me that entails moving to California, which I have no intention of doing. So I guess I’m screwed. Anyway, it was good to talk with Jamie again, brief as it was. We haven’t spent much time together this semester, mostly by my choice I guess. It is hard to hang out with someone you know is good for you and you are attracted to but at the same time realize that there is no chance at all of anything more than friendship. There is nothing wrong with friendship except when one person expects more from it than is viable. That leads to dissatisfaction. A very bad thing. My expectations need sorted out and/​or reevaluated. Notre Dame is not a good place for me. I do not like it here. It is ineffectual in stimulating me, the people here are superficially nice but not truly interested in developing relationships. The social life is stagnant and immature. This place should be called Notre Lame. The education is excellent but I think part of college involves social development and the paradigm here seems to create a strange and asymmetric person who is incapable of interacting in an adult manner socially while being a professional in business matters. I should have gone to a state school. I’ve got Mass, lotsa homework and a group meeting today, plus I must needs call me mudda. Ergo, I vamoose. Adiós.